No Such Thing

Wrapped in my imagined unpenetrable bubble, it suddenly bursts unexpectedly.  As a self confessed escapist, my “fleeing” tendencies came to a halt.  Given an option between fighting and fleeing, I’ll always opt to flee.  Because I detest confrontations, I abhor possible hurtful instances.  One observer was right, there are limits to everything.  After fleeing and running away for so long, I am forced to fight.  Every word I said last night was true,  my “fleeing” tendencies were done to save my own sanity.  I am fighting now, not because I love him less but because I have to love myself more.  I pray for normalcy.  I pray for enlightenment.  I pray that my decision 1.5 years ago was not a big mistake.  Reality really bit me hard yesterday, there’s no such thing as a perfect life…no matter how fiercely one imagined it to be.

Persona Non-Grata

There’s only one way to cope with stressful people - you treat them as persona non-grata.  I am not supposed to write about them.  But this is the best way I know how.  I might as well pour my thoughts here.

The more they feel self righteous (when they have nothing to be proud of) - treat them as persona non-grata.

The more they laugh at your supposed plight (when there is nothing wrong with) - treat them as persona non-grata

The more they spread malicious rumors (which is products of their boring lifestyles) - treat them as persona non-grata

The more they talk viciously about others (which is one of their hobbies) - treat them as personan non-grata.

I’ve never been confrontational.  They say it’s a fight or flee scenario.  With detractors like this, I’d rather flee.  It is useless to fight with these kind of people.  We are not at the same level.  We will never be.  It will only make them bitter, and me vain.  I choose my battles.  If they are any wiser, they will shut their filthy mouths up.

I fight differently.  They say that the best way to make your enemies miserable is to live a happy life.  Don’t let their wrongdoings affect your whole being.  I am not perfect but I know I am trying to live my life the best way I know how.  If I fight fire with fire, I am becoming like them.  Which, I honestly don’t want to be.  I will simply will not let them affect me.  I will enjoy my life.  For now…I’ll wait for them to turn green with envy.