...the interplay of light and shade
hate
February 26, 2010I’m sad. I feel badly about myself. I feel horrible. I hate my mother in law. She’s so evil. She’s mukhang pera. I hate her.
Desensitized
February 21, 2010I want to be desensitized
of all the negative feelings boiling deep inside of me.
of all the circumstances that are beyond my control.
of all the people who can’t understand me.
of all the people who never will see me in a positive light.
of all the people who think that the world revolves around them
of all the people who think that none of it was their fault.
of all the people who will never acknowledge the success of others.
of all the people who always accuse me of starting the problem.
of all the people who will never hear me out.
of all the people who will never appreciate the good things done in the past.
of all the people who will never remember the past sacrifices.
of all the people who blame their circumstance on innocent bystanders.
I want to be desensitized. I want to live a free life. I want to feel loved. I am not asking for anything in return. I just don’t want to be blamed for things I did not do.
