...the interplay of light and shade
Projected Perfect Life
November 12, 2009i honestly don’t know what i did wrong. she is always there to criticize my decisions. it’s as if, she’s trying to make me feel that i made the wrong choice. whereas, i could say that hers is not a perfect life. i’ve done my share of trying to please her. of trying to win their approval. i don’t know, it comes to a point when i want to shout - “it’s my life, i will do whatever i want with it”. maybe i should stop calling. i did not call to be patronized nor insulted. i can feel her sense of disapproval. does she think that my life is a mess. does the earnign capacity and a job in the corporate world guarantees the worth of a person. i am trying to live my life the best way i know how. somehow, i’m starting to get scared/phobia of the telephone calls. the “control” is just too much. instead of trying to reach out, they are really pushing me away.
