Speechless

It’s been a while.  I’ve come to realize, I really don’t want to go back to the corporate world.  Even if I have to struggle with a small business to earn my keep, so be it.  It was more than brain drain.  It was worse than burn-out.  I’ve discussed this with others, a lot.  They think that being an employee is the only way.  I think otherwise.  Right now, I’m not in the mood to speak my mind…even to the people who matters.  I have done my share of talking.  I’m bone tired of trying to prove myself.  Trying to prove that I made the right choice.  Even if for the moment, I can not feel any financial success or renumeration.  For now, I only want to do things.  People ask me how am I.  The standard reply is - I’m ok.  I’ve also realized that for the moment, I don’t want to practice my profession.  No matter what other people will say.  After a series of disappointments and setbacks, I want to take a breather.  When I am back to my old confident self, maybe I could consider the possibility of practicing my profession again.  For now, I have to find myself and determine what I really want.

Pending

Books to finish:

1.  The God of Small Things.

2.  One Hundred Years of Solitude.

3.  One Month to Live.

4.  La Dolce Vita.

5.  A Thousand Country Roads.

6.  A Tale of Two Cities.

7.  The Good Life.

8.  Sense and Sensibility.

9.  Harry Potter series.

Persona Non-Grata

There’s only one way to cope with stressful people - you treat them as persona non-grata.  I am not supposed to write about them.  But this is the best way I know how.  I might as well pour my thoughts here.

The more they feel self righteous (when they have nothing to be proud of) - treat them as persona non-grata.

The more they laugh at your supposed plight (when there is nothing wrong with) - treat them as persona non-grata

The more they spread malicious rumors (which is products of their boring lifestyles) - treat them as persona non-grata

The more they talk viciously about others (which is one of their hobbies) - treat them as personan non-grata.

I’ve never been confrontational.  They say it’s a fight or flee scenario.  With detractors like this, I’d rather flee.  It is useless to fight with these kind of people.  We are not at the same level.  We will never be.  It will only make them bitter, and me vain.  I choose my battles.  If they are any wiser, they will shut their filthy mouths up.

I fight differently.  They say that the best way to make your enemies miserable is to live a happy life.  Don’t let their wrongdoings affect your whole being.  I am not perfect but I know I am trying to live my life the best way I know how.  If I fight fire with fire, I am becoming like them.  Which, I honestly don’t want to be.  I will simply will not let them affect me.  I will enjoy my life.  For now…I’ll wait for them to turn green with envy.