False Hopes

February 11, 2009

Who has the last laugh?

I was hoping you’d ask me out on the school dance… you never did.

I was hoping that you’d pursue me after high school, despite all the obstacles…you never did.

I was hoping that you’d court me after all your revelations…you never did.

I was hoping you’d be a crying shoulder, after my crappy ex broke up with me…you never did.

I was hoping that you’d continue the friendship, even when our worlds seem far apart…you never did.

I was hoping that you’d  take me seriously, the second time you came back…you never did.

I was hoping that you’d choose me when I asked you to…you never did.

I was hoping that you’d seek me before the I made my final choice…you never did.

After four years, you came back.  Shame on you.  You already know that I am happily married.  You are not even half the man my husband is.  You, whom I stupidly thought  was “the One who got away”.  You’re NOT “the One who got away”.  You intentionally wanted to get away from me.  With your all your imagined reasons and excuses I never could comprehend.  You simply was one hell of a commitment-phobe.  I could now laughingly say, It’s you, not me.  For all the times you made me crappy for believing in those false hopes, these are for you.  Read them as I have the last laugh…

You were hoping that I’d let us have a connection again…I never will.

You were hoping that I’d let us be friends again…I never will.

You were hoping that I’d let you back in my life again…I never will.