...the interplay of light and shade
Moods
February 10, 2009I know where this “mood” came from. It started two weeks ago. I know the reasons. i know what triggered it. It has to be stopped. Otherwise, the sensitive disposition and crying spells will not cease. It’s the shocking news. I have to come in terms with it. Besides, there is really nothing I can do about it. Except accept it wholeheartedly. It’s not as if I own the person. It’s not as if the person owe me an explanation. It’s not as it I can’t live without the so-caled friendship. I can not let my control down. I can not let my disposition be ruined. Especially, now that I don’t knwo who my real friends are. Especially, now that I feel so alone. Especially, now that I feel that my life plans are not going anywhere. I have to keep myself busy. I only have myself to depend upon.
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